So, it's not exactly a bad reason I can't sleep. It was my birthday today, so for lunch I had a whole lasagna, and for dinner I had a shake from Steak and Shake. I think this is why I'm not tired plus the hour nap I took at 2:30.
But I did visualize what I want in a wedding reception. Once I realized that it does not need to be a full sit-down meal, a load went off my shoulders. Now thinking of a wedding is keeping me up.
I am very blessed this year. For so long I've wanted a companion to go through my life with me. I did not find that person until this year. Before I met many people who were friends but did not keep in touch with me. I tried to make some people a companion and they thought I wanted more. Now, Tim is here, his family absolutely loves me, I feel whole again, and I thank God every day for him.
My only thing now is to continue to love God more. No person is worth the exuberant praise I could give them. They are simply gifts from God. But God is worthy, and I praise him for the people he sent into my life in the past year who brought me back to confidence when I was hurting. The people who didn't abandon me in my most insane times.